people are evil and close minded most of the time...
thus my journal title...
sooo updates, hmmm, procedure thingee went ok. they said i'll know in 4 months whether its cancer or not... 4 months... loooong time to wait... crappyness... oh well...

i've got about 4,000 photos sitting on my hard drive right now, some are pro shoots and some are fun friend stuff that my friends are bugging me to finish hee hee, so i've got plenty to fill my free time these days. i just spent an entire day finishing the photos i just uploaded... i've been off photoshop for a while while i fixed my brain and getting back into it exploded me and each photo ended up with 30 layers or so each of minor adjustments and color variations hee hee...
but if anybody says they look out of focus i'm gonna kick some butt! i've been reading lots of photography books while at the library and i never see anybody using soft focus glamour photography on this site anymore so i went for it and may have gone slighty overboard with all the stuff i did to these photos but i like how they turned out so i dont care. i'm sick of my photos looking like the things i take pictures of. so you might see more surreality from me (if you didnt catch that i put together the worlds surreal and reality hee hee). funky colors, cross processing, high contrast, bright highlights, soft focus, etc. i like it. and i cant do photography if i cant enjoy what i'm doing right? i was never the traditional photographer, i used to argue with my teachers that i was a man ray artist not an ansel adams artist. and they would all say i needed to show them i could do ansel adams crap before i could do man ray. so i'd do them one print and then they'd shut up. but it gets annoying to do that with each new teacher that somes along...

hmmm what was my point? i'm tired and i think i'm rambling... so i'll go to bed, but first i will inform you all that the giant yellow snake in my gallery and in the banner above has passed away recently !RIP! she was suuuuuuch a sweetie so i'm going back into her images and doing more with them and as many as i can for her owner so you'll see more of her up here i'm sure...
ok sleepy...

yay i have a subscription again, so i'll probably start being more active on here, prolly not as active as i used to be, but at least i wont be dead to devart.

oh and i thought it was about time you guys met my snake, his name is jimmy boy and he's a ball python, i've had him since sept and he is such a sweetie, i've never met a snake that likes to be pet so much, when i run my fingers down his spine he undulates, its so cute...

i am shooting again... it feels good...
not as good as sticking my hands in liquid death (developer)... but still good...

've been gone for a long time i know... but a lot has happened...
too much to go into now... but i felt bad so i thought i'd submit something... i dont know how much i'll be around these days, i dont have a subscription anymore and deviant art is no fun without a subscription. plus life is just plain crazy...
i'm sure i'll write a journal or something explaining all this eventually...
i'll just leave it at a LOT has happened...
some good, lots bad, a few wonderfull, and a few miserable...
but for the moment i am happy so dont worry about me too much...

my dentist says my life is a soap opera